today i paid all my bills and did the grocery shopping. walked to walmart 2 times, the mail box two times, and then walked to the office once. i am beat and hurting. pat called me too, God i miss him already. i so want to go and see him again but i'll never get another ride until June. i think he wants to wait to buy a car when we can pick it out together. i am totally confused as to what to do now. this depresses me.