11/11/11

Had several set backs in life. I have been trying my best to deal with excruciating back pain. Bobbie developed a severe allergy to something, and I couldn't deal with that and my pain too so I found her a new home with some really great people, they are gonna spoil her rotten. She loved them and was happy enough to jump right up into their truck to go bye bye. They are going to have her looked at the vets office. I really hated to give Bobbie up, but i was having a hard time just filling her food and water let alone trying to do anything else that required bending.
Somehow today I have to change the bed, try to do the laundry and get a bath. Not sure if I will be able to even do those things. And yes, I am still smoking for the moment. At least I only smoke outside the house so it doesn't get all over everything.

10/21/2011

Had a minor set back on my non smoking and started back up again for a few days. i have hopes to try to quit again. I have to try and be stronger i guess.

october 24, 2011

Well I gave up smoking again 6 days ago since I hated to spend the money on cigarettes, and I hated the rain and the cold outside too. I have decided also to reopen my etsy shop. I did that yesterday. I am glad that my smoking only occurred outdoors and did not ruin my house or the things I keep here. I quit cold turkey, which is really hard and making you a terribly cranky person to live with. I have found it is easier every day to keep myself busy and not thinking about it too much. I step at a time I guess.

I had to get rid of all the guinea pigs I had, because it turned out I was terribly allergic to them. I had gone into anafalacktic(sp?) shock and I really don't need to die trying to make a buck, so I gave that all up.

its been a while since i posted anything. i have several things different again. i closed my online shop since i never sold anything. now i guess i just make gifts or things to keep from now on. the dog leashes i took up to the local pet shop have not yet sold either. i started smoking again too. i know eventually i will quit again but not ready to give it up yet. i have lost interest in my crafting for the moment and my crafts sit idol in the positions they where in when I last worked on them. i dont know what to do to get back into it again. i think i just really burned myself out for real. i still have bobbie to keep me company but i get so lonely at home that I go and visit my neighbors a lot. i did read a book in the last two weeks and I have started reading the second book in the series.