so has happened the last few days. my fish tank started leaking water. so the fish had to go. we kept the tank though and it now houses a cavy. she is very cute and happy to be here. today i had to assist my adoptive mom and dad e file their taxes. I also had to clean the house and rearrange stuff again. pat and i went to the pet store where we traded fish the last time for the cavy to pick up the cooler and the bucket from the other day. then pat got called to go help one of his friends to pick up a new TV stand at walmart this evening before dinner so we have had a full few days. needless to say I am dog tired. i only wish i had better pain medication.

i am getting really tired of doing the same things over and over again. i have been doing different stuff to try to get past the feeling. i have also started to grow my nails out again. i painted them platinum color today. they turned out really good for a change. today i also cleaned the fish tank and have been crocheting baby bibs from scrap yarns.

my gosh the time does fly when you are keeping busy. i had no idea it had been so long since i posted anything. i have been so busy using my new sewing machine and crocheting and teaching myself to knit that it seems i have little time for anything else. the holidays where especially difficult when i was trying to make gifts for everyone on my list, and once i thought i was finished doing that someone new would be added. then i had to deal with after Holiday depression because not all the gifts i made for certain people where appreciated. that killed my gift giving spirit for real. but not i am back into working and i have recently completed crocheting my first sweater. placed it for sale in my shop so you can find it there.

i am still on the weight roller coaster and i have to try to dedicate myself to the diet better. i have had terrible issues with blood sugar drops. weight this morning was 305.8 on my brand new glass scale. Jesus how I wish it was just so easy to loose 100 pounds. but it isn't easy at all. after eating like a pig yesterday today i have to try to rededicate myself to the weight loss again. i feel terrible this morning and i should. i am disgusted with myself.

terrible days

yesterday and today have been the worst days so far. i feel very stretched to the limit at this time. and so very tired too, not enought sleep i know. i cant wait to see pat when i get back from church tonight. he makes everything much more tolerable.

keeping busy

i have reopened my small esty shop. i am working very hard to try to get some new merchandise in it. there is a link on the blog to it. or just type in zoeae.etsy.com

busy day

i have been trying to get quotes for car insurance and i need to get on the phone with a title agency or an attorney today to find out how to fix the cars title issue. i sure hope this can be resolved easily and cheap as possible. i really need to be driving very soon.

i am totally forgetting what else i need to do today. my mind sucks big time. i am sure i will remember eventually.

busy day

today i paid all my bills and did the grocery shopping. walked to walmart 2 times, the mail box two times, and then walked to the office once. i am beat and hurting. pat called me too, God i miss him already. i so want to go and see him again but i'll never get another ride until June. i think he wants to wait to buy a car when we can pick it out together. i am totally confused as to what to do now. this depresses me.

keeping busy

yesterday i kept busy getting needed info. i think i have found the perfect car, now just waiting for the money to buy it. i got quotes for insurance, and found out how much to get it inspected, pay taxes and get it registered and plated. i also got the low down on deposits for utilities and such and figured out if we can afford to live where we want to if all goes well. it was a very productive day. i cant wait until pat calls me today so i can give him all the information. i miss the sound of his sweet voice too. I also wrote 2 letters yesterday.

good things coming soon

i have plans on Sunday to visit my love for the first time. i'm scared and somewhat nervous, but very excited to be getting a chance to spend some of the day with him. then after that i get to go and look at a double wide mobile home we are interested in. i am not nervous about that at all. i hope all turns out to be a great sunday!

Thank you God for all the blessings you have brought into my life recently!

tired

i am so tired tonight. i did a lot today. David fixed the broken faucet too. I'm very proud of him.
i got a lovely phone call tonight too from pat. :) god I love him.