10/25/2011

Last night I tore apart the project I was working on and started over again completely. I think it is much better since I started it over but I am still concerned about it. I got quite a bit done last night but I had to quit because my arm was hurting. I am thinking I will change the pattern a bit to make it better all around.

I also found out for sure last night that my youngest is planning on moving to Washington state next year. I am not really looking forward to her leaving again, but I know I have to cut the cord. I it just that I have missed her so the last couple of years. I guess I can't hold on forever.

the funeral was good as far as funerals go. I cried more then I thought I would. i think only because i was reminded of grandma too many times because every song that was sung by the singer was a song that she would sing while she puttered around the house do something or just when she felt like singing. Pat knew why I cried because I have broken down in Mass before for the same reason, but I did not share with anyone else. we told some of the family the date that is set for our wedding. no one really said much. i got to meet another of Pat's aunts. At least they all like me and make me feel welcome and a part of the family.

feelings

i miss him already......i love him so much.

i miss his sweet voice too. I wish he would call today.....

good things coming soon

i have plans on Sunday to visit my love for the first time. i'm scared and somewhat nervous, but very excited to be getting a chance to spend some of the day with him. then after that i get to go and look at a double wide mobile home we are interested in. i am not nervous about that at all. i hope all turns out to be a great sunday!

Thank you God for all the blessings you have brought into my life recently!

swinging tempuratures

the temperature today is going to be in the 50's again, but right now it is cold in here. i have the shivers. yesterday i was out walking to the store in the cold and i always feel terrible the day after doing that. i get a sore throat and chills all day following. brrr

dinner? and then some

we have yet to eat dinner tonight. i have talked my oldest son into getting us McDonald's dollar menu for dinner. i have been feeling more then a bit off all day long. i am feeling more down then normal and really pissy too. i just don't understand why i get this way when things seem to going ok with us. every little thing is getting on my last nerve too. not to mention the pain is higher today from my fibro. i sure hope that tomorrow is a better day for me.